Potential of Being Vulnerable: Romshri

August 16, 2017

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It is time to become aware of the vulnerability in ourselves that is being triggered by other people.  I remember being over-sensitive and then hiding it behind the mask of being over-strong throughout my life. It led me confused, half-baked and unreal and because we live in the world of duality, life is meant to complete its full circle and makes a weak person strong and a strong person weak someday.

So, eventually I realized this totally amazing thing about self which I think everyone should know about being sensitive.

Sensitivity is a spiritual power that enables you to access metaphysical world of mind, aura, spirits and other realms of universe. And guess what? I again unintentionally started hiding it behind the disguise of this meek and docile personality who knows nothing.

I did not want to come out with my full power because I could see clearly that flashes of it was upsetting my bosses at work, my teachers in class, my friends in general. I felt I was snatching their power away by announcing that I do not need their “so called emotional or social support”. I was empowered enough to show them my own flaws, then show them how I heal my scars and grow. I could also even assist them onto their own journeys.

But I was afraid.

I was afraid that it would upset them to an extent that I would lose them forever. So I continued pretending that I was broken, clueless and in need of their guidance and support. It brought nothing but circular patterns of being victim-supporter-victimiser-victim.

The pretense was not helping anyone.

So finally, I chose to accept, acknowledge and show my own full inner powers and abilities. I realized I was not the same. I never felt so empowered and connected to existence before. This choice was the highest choice I ever made in my knowing.

But yes, it brought damaging effects to my ignorant-self. My closest friends drifted far, my employers snatched all the reputation away and my loved ones not only turned their backs on me but also stabbed and crushed the veins of my residual ego.

We need to take a serious look of what all we have been imposing on ourselves. For example guilt, resentment, rejection, regret, blame and deep agonies. We get triggered by everything we see on social media and get closed in defense. We want to look just right and nothing else. There is nothing good or bad about it.  We see others, get triggered and instantly react in defense. We just need to ask the question of openness.

What stops us to admit that: we do not like others because we do not like ourselves.

There can not be any other reason.

When we suffer, we can not see anyone in joy. What stops us to admit that. Why we create a false self who says “I am happy for you.” Why can not we say that “Its good that you are happy but it is deepening my personal pain.”

If not to others, we can at least admit this to ourselves in our own space. Why can not we look at our pain, hold its hand, take it into our embrace until it gets dissolved in our deep love for self.

There is nothing wrong with hiding pain.  What is wrong with this is that we don’t want to admit that we are in pain about it or admit to why we are in pain about it. On top of it, we do not do ANYTHING about our pain. We puke it on others in disguise of appreciation, defense mechanisms and being “just right”.

People come to me and say they are seekers. A person who do not want to seek why he reacts in defense or why he always wants to look right can not be a seeker. A person who is not willing to dive deep into his own darkness can never reach the light. Their journey will never begin because they are not ready to see their base camp.

They are just right, good, pure and kind souls. What is left for them to achieve now?

Perhaps, we all need to begin our journey by opening up to self, by seeing and acknowledging our own flaws and powers both.

Perhaps we have been just talking and doing nothing to heal the fractured fragments of our consciousness in the whole.  Perhaps the point of human life is to really be in it.  Perhaps we are not realizing own our war with self and projecting on the external world.

Perhaps by resolving our inner war with self will automatically create harmony and healing with other people and in our human relationships on this physical plane. Perhaps we all carry that potential to begin from self, potential of stop sending aggressive vibrations to external world, potential of exploring layers of our own flaws and virtues, potential of healing own wounds, potential of being vulnerable courageously, potential of allowing people to grow, potential of growing in own power and potential to shine the hidden image of God within.

Romshri

Founder

Awakening Love Academy

www.awakeninglove.co